Live your life until love is found, or love's gonna get you down!

Oh Mika, I should listen to you more.

I have a rittle cat sleeping next to me and it is so good.

Happy Turkey Day tomorrow!

Just finished The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle by Murakami yesterday. It was strangely unsatisfying despite the fact that it was so well thought out and so well written (as always). It was just a little too long and meandering to end so abruptly, but I have a feeling that I would have enjoyed it more if I had read it over summer vacation and not during a semester of college.

Also disturbing that it had a lot to do with a deteriorating relationship, and it's dumb to think it, but I wonder how much that played upon what happened to me.

Idk, I'm dying, Squirtle.

A lot of times I step back and feel like I have very little to show. I feel I have little worth, little direction, and little motivation to get to whatever I'm supposed to be to be 110% happy with myself. I'm thankful that it's always been pretty easy for me to find happiness within the moment, but if I look at everything overall, what have I done? What do I have to show that I've lived for almost two decades? What kind of impression do I want to make in time, in the world, in people's hearts?

Am I supposed to be big into philanthropy? Am I supposed to be entering every art contest, trying to put as many awards to my name as possible? Am I supposed to be applying for the top jobs in the hottest city in the country? Am I supposed to work out everyday, eat nothing, and be some magazine picture of a person? Am I supposed to be getting straight A's on top of all of this?

What am I learning in college? Am I really going to remember all of it and be able to apply it all in some job? I mean, art skills are easy to apply, but accounting? Microeconomics? Statistics? Is it worth learning about bad debt expense and inventory accounts for 3+ hours a week for three months?

Am I supposed to be in graphic design trying to double major in business marketing? Should I have tried out sculpture or fashion design or actually finished Japanese and gone abroad to the place all my bloodline is from?

I mean, I'm happy now, I'm pretty much always happy with myself and my situation at any given moment. But is just being happy enough?

Well, here's some stuff I've done for my Communication Pictures class, just to make this entry not completely useless:



( 3 Icons, 1 Comic )

( This week and next week are shitting on my like the internet's best scat porn! )

I feel guilty for whining, but long lists of awful things tend to make good stories. I guess this is karma balance for last weekend being fantastic (re: Passion Pit is even better live than imaginable).

Gonna go try to relax, read a chapter or two of The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle and then drift to sleep. G'night guys, I miss you all; you've been on my mind.

Nothing too crazy happening lately! Rybear and Alan's girlfriends were both here visiting this weekend so we actually did stuff :)

A running list of things:

♥ Tom is still adorable
♥ We all went to Fitz's. I got Asian Salad and shared a Creamboat Float with Tom P:
♥ Anna and I bonded hardcore over Shoebox Project
♥ Bear, Rose, Ben, Tom, and I went up in the St. Louis arch!
♥ Anna and I dressed Alan and Tom up in Urban Outfitters P:
♥ We ate at Cheesecake factory. I got Strawberry Lemonade, Shrimp w/ Angel Hair, and shared Godiva Cheescake with Tom

Also I'm really way too pleased with the fact that "Don't Be Panic!" from Cancer Has Become the Number One Killer Disease has caught on with my bros... I just heard this from Halo in the common room:

"Don't Be Panic!! Mongoose can help!"

Okay gonna go study microeconomics. Hope you all are doing well!! I miss all of you! ♥

Soooooo I've been back at college since Saturday!

It's really disorienting to be back for a second year because everything is the same yet totally different! Not only a new dorm, but they did construction on my campus and made a new, really awful cafeteria after tearing down the old one that we all loved. Now I live in a suite with 3 other girls, all with single rooms that share one common room and bathroom. All my bros live together all the way at the opposite end of the hall.

It's super nice to have a single, but the walls are paper thin, and my suities are loud as fuck. They're all super besties and I just kind of get along with them since I roomed with one last year. I spend most of my time in my bro's suite (Bear named me the suite pet), and I def crashed on the couch two nights out of four nights so far lol.

Today was my first day of classes. I had Pictures for Communications with the cutest 50-ish year old teacher who wore round spectacles, a pink striped shirt, navy pants, colorful bowtie, and white shoes. He played classical music while going over the syllabus and our first in-class exercise was to choose and illustrate selected lyrics from a sheet he gave us. Mine were from Love Game, Single Ladies, and So What lol.

After that I had Accounting which seems pretty straightforward. Our teacher is a super Israeli guy with a thick accent, but he's adorable because he tries to throw in a joke every 3 ppt slides or so.

So, things are okay. I'm def not settled back in yet, I haven't switched back to the college version of me yet, but I'll get there eventually. For now I miss everyone at home a lot a lot. I also really miss being able to choose who I want to hang out with...because it's kind of hard to avoid your Karens when they live on the same floor as you. :/

My only other complaint is that my legs are coated in mosquito bites and it's extremely unbearable. :(

Started goodbyes with dessert con mi familia, including the g'parents who I love and adore. We had my 4th birthday cake, the orange spongecake with whipped cream and strawberries that I requested my mom a long time ago.

Afterwards, I met up with Soulmate and Gina to see Inglourious Basterds, which is decidedly my favorite movie of the summer (followed closely by Away We Go and Up, for those who are keeping track). A plainly Tarantino movie in all its blatant violence, but a little more refined than in other films I've seen by him. Wonderfully witty, and Brad Pitt's a champ.

All three of us hadn't eaten dinner, so we went to Suburban Diner and I got a Taylor ham and egg sandwich to celebrate New Jersey dining. We made a quick trip to Aya's to say goodbye to her and Michelle, and then Mandy drove me home in the top-down convertible to our favorite indie finds.

In conclusion, a wonderful end to what must have been a wonderful summer if I'm trying this hard not to think about it because I don't have time for weepin!

To reacap, the things that stick out in my mind most are beach, AnimeNEXT, Ted Leo, Matt&Kim, Maine, Sistawife living in my basement, and driving all over North Jersey with Soulmate. I made lots of new friends (BSquad, 1219 ladies!) and got to spend a lot of time with people I really love.

I'm sorry I didn't get to see some as much as I wanted, but there really never is enough time and I don't think I'll ever leave a vacation without that regret because I always want to see friends more.

So guys, thanks for everything and I'll catch you on the flipside. :)

Aaaaand to reward anyone who sat through all that vaggery, some tunes:

AND THEN SUDDENLY I AM LEAVING FOR ST. LOUIS IN A WEEK

brb freaking out hardcore

nervous for no raisin

Edit: AND THEN SUDDENLY, RAINBOWS ALL OVER MY ROOM

Idk what's going to happen with me after college/during the long vacations between semesters, but wherever I end up, I feel like I really would like to room away from home with friends. After spending all of Maine with buddies and having Marielle over my house up until like a couple of hours ago, being alone in my house just with my family is kind of a drag.

Maybe I'll work my ass off during the rest of my vacations to save up to be more on my own.

Idk, as much as I need time alone, I have a pretty lonely soul!

HIIII GUYSSSSSS

Just got back from a week long adventure in Maine with Liz, Scout, and mah new bro Max!!!!!!!! Probs the greatest week of my summer. I'M CHO GLADDDDDDDDD

Liz played me this this afternoon. Idk probs the best and most appropriate ever? ♥



And despite spending like 12 hours in a car, it was one of the best birthdays I've had in a couple of years. :) I am pretty much the happiest baby right now.

Gonna go listen to the birthday playlist Bear sent me and then sleep! And then ride around NJ to awful rap music with my Sisterwife as we adventure around Mitsuwa.

THE END GOODNIGHT!!!! :)

ME! IT'S ME! THIS GUY!

Aight, fo real, I should probs stop drawing Harry Potter bullshit forever! :C



Idk, I was drawing other stuff and then Whatever You Like came on and my brain was like HEY WHAT IF JAMES POTTER AND LILY EVANS BECAUSE LIL RHYMES WITH JILL AND JAMES POTTER BEING A BIG FLIRTATIOUS ASSHOLE IS ALWAYS AWESOME

idk

my brain

good night.

PS: bad google images textures because I'm too lazy to do anything else to this right now!!

My internet and cable have been so fucked up as of late. My cue to leave the house? Probably.

Happy birthday today to my sisterwife ♥ :)

I was recently reunited with acciobrain! which is a blessing and a curse because it has been a very enjoyable revisit, but all it makes me want to do is draw Harry Potter things, and that is awful. :[

I did, however, draw this prior to finding the above...



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Aaaaand everyone should listen to Phoenix, a really good indie band.

I haven't done anything productive since Harry Potter. Watched some Batman the Brave and the Bold because the series is beyond good. SVU marathon right now. Life's good :)

Hatched a bunch of new babies too


Very vivid dreams last night/this morning. I was raising a baby fox I named Evelyn, Evey for short, and my Roo, my booboo cat, was insanely jealous. :C I was in a group of people and we went somewhere...my neighbor's granddaughter drove us in her minivan.

At some point the dreams shifted and you were curled up next to me asleep in bed, and when I rolled over and woke up, the bed was empty and you weren't there.

Apparently foxes in dreams are not the best things:

The fox is a predator of great cunning and wiles. As such, to dream about the fox is to see oneself as either possessing or being victimized by such attributes. The focus on this symbol should be your sense of fear or kinship toward the fox. Whether you like or dislike the fox will determine the representation of the world and your relationships in it. If the fox is an adversary, the object that the fox is trying to take from you may be revealing.

A fox appearing in your dream should indicate that the qualities you most associate with a fox are somewhere at play in your life; either by you against someone else, or by someone else against you.

Is there someone else in the presence of the fox that shares its qualities? Is there another person in the dream who seems to be approaching you with caution?

Edit: WAIT SCRATCH THAT I like this definition better ;D

To see a fox in your dream, represents insight, cleverness, cunningness and resourcefulness. Perhaps the dream is telling you that you need to exhibit more of these qualities in your waking life. Or that you need to conceal your thoughts and remain silent about some situation. Alternatively, it indicates a period of isolation or loneliness. You may take this time to ponder some issue or reflect upon your life. The dream could be a metaphor for someone who is a fox, as in a foxy lady.

THAT LAST LINE LOL

Oh man I'm glad that the Sorting Hat meme is a hoppin place lol

New music group lady I like: Yelle. French electropop adorable shit. Plus the really cute TA in my 2D Design class played Ce Jeu during studio one day and it was love at first listen.


Def want that geometric dress and hoodies at the end


Also have some French dudes rockin out to a Yelle remix lmfao

Also in GPXP, whenever I click on the Party button, I always expect a hoppin party to just pop up and emerge out of my computer screen. Idk, my brain.

And pimping this again, for good measure :) Because I keep getting mixed answers about which house I should be in, both from people and awful internet quizzes. I have no life, you're right.

☆the SORTING HAT meme☆

Hahahahaha oh man so that last post was just me NERDING THE FUCK OUT, but it was a good excuse to learn some html basics and god knows I need to start learning code better at some point in my life. @__@

I ate a lot of food and babysat today.

And that was it.

My life is aces. :D